First and foremost, I would like to announce that this blog will be nothing more than a site for random shout-outs and personal messages. And now, back to the main gist.

I'm sorry > to the both of you who were kept awake by me this night... Would never have found out if it wasn't for my dad.

I'm hurt inside > to the one who made me like this... Would never let you know unless you're contented inside.

I'm crying > to ease my fears of tomorrow and of the unknown... Would only trust in...

I'm typing > to let the world know that I'm still human... Would appreciate if no one calls me inhumane from today onwards.

I'm lying > and living on one based on the decisions made by other parties... Would continue to be sorry, hurt, cry and type until...

Today sum'd = It kills to live life based on a lie... and I will wish. how I wish...

 

Mmhmm. So LJ did send me the song called - unpredictable which sounded like

"Girl get comfortable... we're gonna do something new tonight... not the usual stuff... we're gonna get unpredictable"

I still don't feel sexy. LOL. coz i'm bored. Like looking at my socks and starts playing socks puppets BORED. AMISHakdnuwdlnbw? Jz go sleep dingz. Okay replies the nutcase. So I'm going to sleep now...

All the above was nothing but a sign of ultimate boredom. I need Mahjong...! Jk. haha.

I do get vulgar. Watch it. Don't get on my nerves or u'll regret it.

My hair is now horrifyingly horrible. Result of not washing for a week and lack of sleep for 2 weeks. All thanks to all the hwz I have and all the worries I have, to my studies, CF, cell, my super hectic schedule, teachers, friends, family. DANG. And a pack of potato chips. BECKZ! I NEED IT QUICK!!

So I wish Sheildtox wud be the cure... But guess not so anymore. I have finally finished reading Superfudge. After a long period of 3 months, which 2 months it has been hibernating in the school library. Mel sht up. =D Yee Wen got back spirited away too... After 3 years, I finally watched it.

And the best thing is, I finally installed SIMS!! Even though its in spanish?? And I don't quite understand a thing, but... HEY! I do understand afterall... Born genius. *smirks* RAWR!!! Shucks.. I really feel like giving up. Ending all these that I have done. Ending this life which probably means nothing to anyone else. Ending this crap and taking away the misery I'm causing to all the people around me. But again, its not a matter of how much I love God, but how much God loves me. He loves me, he wants me to live, he wants me not to take my life. He sees a promise in me... He knows I can do all these thru him. He knows as long as I believe I will have hope. BUT WHY?!

I'm suffering...  All these pain... and worries... they're killing me.  I"m to think positive. I'm to think how God thinks. Only what God thinks matters. Only what God thinks matters. So many choices. Knowing which one I should be walking on. Knowing whatz good and whatz bad for me. Knowing I should learn to love others more. Knowing I should not be self centered and think about the work but why the work. KNOWING ALL THESE, but yet refusing to cooperate. My mind is going to explode. If u can put it tht way. I feel so burdened I thought I couldn't walk. WHAT SHUD I DO NOW?!

Stressing to the point of death.

So Mel really did read the blog post. And she was tortured KAOKAO by me ^^. All thanx to Daniel Lee the not so great ^^. And I found out she wants the Advent Children's poster too... Wahahaha... Another point to upset Mel on... Now I sound like an evil friend. But, NO! I'm not... I'm so good you're probably feeling sad i don't know you... hehehehe... Anyways, here's one great mail I received. No matter how much my brother detests chain mails or forwarded mails, I do actually read them before ripping the sender apart... Hehehehehe

Here goes:
1. For the husband or wife tht snores all nite, bcoz he/she is home asleep with me and not anyone else. (this don't realli matters to me coz I'm not married... Maybe if my pc were to disappear one day I'll worry ^^)

2. For my teenage daughter who is complaining about doing dishes, bcoz tht means she's at home and not on the streets. (Better read this to your parents =D)

3. For the taxes tht I pay, bcoz it means that I'm employed!!

4. For the mess I hav to clean after a party, coz it means tht I hav been surrounded by friends.

5. For the clothes tht fit a lil' too snug, bcoz it means tht I hav enuf to eat. (Consonlation for all those fats in me)

6. For my shadow tht watches me work, bcoz it means i'm out in the sunshine.

7. For a floor tht needs mopping, and windows tht needs cleaning bcoz it means I have a home. (Those with maids, this seriously won't make any sense.)

8. For all the complaining I hear about the government, bcoz it means tht we have the freedom of speech.

9. For the parking spot I find at the far end of the parking lot, bcoz it means I'm capable of walking and I hav been blessed with transportation. (You need this. Especially when u're in a place like MV trying to find a parking space)

10. For the noise I hav to bear from my neighbours, bcoz it means that I can hear! (CNY coming up. All ye non-Chinese ppl, better read this straight)

11. For the pile of laundry and ironing, bcoz it means I hav clothes to wear.

12. For weariness and sching muscles at the end of the day bcoz it means I have been capable of working hard.

13. For the alarm tht goes off EARLY in the morning, bcoz tht means I'm still alive. (I really like this one =D)

14. And lastly, for a friend as kind as me to retype and post this e-mail I received so the sender of this mail won't be ripped apart by my bro...

God bless ya all. It's been a tiring day. Back to school tomorrow. =)

P.S. - I want ice cream, and I'm gonna be kong'd out soon. (Read the title.)

Mel's gonna regret if she don't read this post. She's also gonna regret if she reads it.

I have Daniel's poster. Found in GALAXIE... January Edition... ><" I was like wondering.. WHAT ON EARTH IS IT DOING IN THE MAG???

Okay. Enuf about Mel. Here to say to all those who are either angry at Paramjit, or at Pn. Jessie, or BOTH, chill out. They are SERIOUSLY NOT WORTH your attention. Give your attention to someone more worthy of it... Like ME!! =D wahahaha... ^^

Anyways, pic of the day...

Mel the weightliftin HAMSTA!!

Heheheh.. God bless. Now ends this stressful day.

Pssstt...!! My Biology teacher rox. Did I tell u tht? If I had not, then now u knoe.. heheh.. Next time, if u r a saujanian of coz, wen u get Pn. Thamarai for Bio, REJOICE!! She uses BIG words... ahaha...

Wel, ystrday didn't update. Maklumlah... I fell asleep while copyin my 2nd karangan. Darn... All Rohima's fault. So Yee Wen is president for chess club. Congrats again pal. And it waz Suet's b'day!!.. Happie B'day Suet. Howz it feels being older? wakaka.. ^^ Welp, the peak ystrdae was me bein nominated for president in chess club.. I had to admit to evryone dat I don't belong to the chess club... So fish lah.. ><'

Today! I realli can do summary. Anyone need help? ahaha... Today's a happie day!! So little hwz... I finished my +mth hwz by noon and tht is gr8. =D Em, so I plan to plae plae plae 2nite, so dat I can regain lost plae. Confused? Nah.. u're surely smart enuf.. hehe.. Niways, I didn't become president of choir club. Don't be sad... I remained pianist, for the 5th consecutive year. Ahhhhh.. the joy!

Well, for ur info, datz just d crisis i'm facin... ><" Ish!! Eng. Lit is not changin to another dae... and BOTH practises clashes. So now in my mind, it's like dat... English Lit or Choir... That IS the question... ><' Aiyakk!! I don't like diz larh. Any1 can gv me suggestions? Coz... I realli cannot make up my sad confused lil' mind. Hmm.. Choir, which I have been in for 5 yrs, and surely wil enter competition, or Eng Lit, which paramjit guarantee's an A1 but I doubt so. Even so, I like Eng. Lit, and I already signed up for the exam. Tho I can stil quit, but tht'll just make me end up as Paramjit's slave for d rest of d yr... ><" and it'll mean more DIStress. =D

So... HELP ME ARH!!! ><' Eesh. I'm current staring at the Lipton Ice Tea Bottle... =D and tryin to make up my mind ler.. ><" waaaaa!!! Ish Ish.. aniways, beri yr comments, and majority wins la.. hahaa.. I knoe some ppl like 2 gv reali neat comments.. Like "aiyo, its your life, you choose lo. You must learn to make desicions for urself marrh!"... If I get any of this... ><" I'll faint I tel u... Tho Mel has not done rejoicin for seein me fall on stage, dang. I don't care arh.. Gv proper comments dat wil help me.. Keyword is HELP ME. =D

Okay larh. I shal end here. Good right? =D Btw, I'm now the FISH + CAT = FISHY CAT (whatever tht is)... Err.. God bless ya all, and don't die~

Don't get me wrong. Finally and delicious both don't go together. I'm just putting them together because Herbal Tea is delicious... Yumz.

Welpz, here I am!!! My hwz almost finished. About 3 more to go... Goodie. All the hard ones are now done! Or in other words, telahpun ku bereskan. =D Joy~ Wonderful joy! Alright now, gotta get back to work... Have to revise my History also... Whoo~ Looking forward to a LONG... LONG... day... But, nevertheless, I believe that it will be superb. Just like every other non-ordinary day.

Alas, this day has come to end,
with a bitter-sweet now and then.
Lets all see what tomorrow brings,
Hoping it's a day of spring...

God bless ya all. Shall update again when I FINALLY finish ALL my hwz...!!

Some people make you feel like puking. Don't they?

I just came across one today. And guess what? Real neat happy piece of news I got. Man... She did what she said, even though I can see that the whole crowd (almost) was not really pleased with it when she announced that action.

Million congrats to my buddy Yee Wen of course, for getting the presidential post in the Red Crescent Society this year. I'm truly glad, really. That SHE got that post instead of some other not-wanting-to-mention-their-names people. Well, and then the Vice President. I wasn't quite satisfied with it. This girl was nothing but a face front crap actor. Only in front of teachers. You say that I'm jealous. Nah... I don't think I am... Why? Because there's seriously nothing to be jealoused about. Wait till the day she gets her bum out into that working world. And we'll see what happens. Some people can be really ignorant. I'm not kidding.

Well, I got to be Commander for the girl's marching team. And that also, just because no one else can do it. She had to give me that post. Darn. Another 3 days of sorethroat and fever. It ain't good I assure you.

But well, I did have fun during the Bola Tampar one. Seeing that CERTAIN PEOPLE didn't get unqualified for posts again... But, hey man! Celebrate this. Firstly, Lai Mun got Secretary!!! And of course... Not forgetting Jia Von, who got form rep.!!! Not bad lah... haha...

So, besides the AGMs, today was one heck of a homework-filled day. Ever since the days of Yoke Nam, never once have I been dumped with this GREAT BIG PILE of homework, which, in my perspective, is taller than Mount Everest. It really is THAT BAD. Yes... You may not understand because these homework all have to be done by hand. And they are no 1 or 2 pages work... All amounting up to 4 pages at least each.

Well first period was EST, which she gave us 3 pages from the BIG GREEN exercise book o copy from. Which, fortunately, I finished during Chemistry class. Can't help it... The teacher is so boring, and she talks faster than the speed of light. Imagine that... Well, after that, it was Maths and more tortures, a whole page to finish. And then, Biology. I'm telling you, I don't like wednesdays anymore... We had a report to finish, and of course, 4 pages of notes. Wonderful ain't it?

Later came recess. And everyone, INCLUDING ME, was rejoicing of course!! Who wouldn't like recess after 2 whole periods of Biology? After recess, we had Chemistry, which was when I finished my EST work. I finished my Chemistry notes during Physics class, which was when they were busy playing with the Tuning Forks and the Slingy Springs. It was fun... the Tuning Forks I mean... ^^" Well, Physics, we had a whole sub topic of notes, and of course, with the homework from last week, I seriously think I'm dying of Homework Phobia...

WAIT!! I don't have homework phobia... I only have writing phobia... It would be nice if teachers start allowing students to send in typed works... =D So with the previous week's work, which are History notes, Literature, Malay Essays, 2005 SPM's BM paper... I have roughly 8 homeworks up my back. There goes my peaceful Wednesday afternoon. Simply destroyed by random people I meet, called teachers...

But the good thing about today is, tuition is cancelled!!! Seriously, nothing could be worse than having to endure that whole load of homework with more from my Accounts tuition class. Enough brain work. Time to start my fingers/hand exercise?

God bless alwyz.